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It seems to me that saying what's on our minds has become the norm. (So here's a little taste of my mind...) Showing parts of our body is not shameful. "Statuses" express things that we wouldn't normally say. Pictures posted show a side that is unexpected. Behind the lens, in the virtual reality of FB, instagram, blogs, twitter, or whatever else fills up our time, we may be different people. Then again maybe these things 'filter' us and they post us as people we desire to be, but don't have the 'cohones' to really be. I know I need to filter-but today the blog is not for that.
I'm truly tired of it. This post is a venting rant. You have been forewarned. (not in any particular order)
1. I'm tired of doing the same thing over and over again.
2. I want to live without worrying about money.
3. I want people (especially women) to really consider what pictures they post. Men are horny.
4. I want to be spontaneous, but often am limited to, maybe $ has to do with it.
5. I really want to be in a house, so I can have people over all the time.
6. I don't want to worry if people like me, or they 'have to' because I'm their pastor.
7. I want to have everyone over for New Year's that I love and care about (the 1075 friends on FB...hehe)
8. I truly want to see a godly revival happen. I look out every Sunday into a congregation for the past 5 years and hope that Christ is moving in their hearts...then get disappointed, because I rarely see people "REACTING TO GOD'S AMAZINGNESS!" Maybe I'm the hindrance.
9. I feel like we do what we do because that's the way it is, I'm tired of that answer and that way.
10. I want to truly be creative on my day off. It boils to a frustration rant like this.
11. I'm tired of blending in with the crowd...time to leave an imprint on the world.
12. I will be sad if my purpose in God's plan is just to be a mediocre pastor. (Then again, what constitutes a great pastor?)
(As the venting is happening, I'm noticing that some of these have to do with money...I'm about to puke.)
13. I want a darkroom or a place for a design studio. Then again, my life for the past 8 yrs hasn't reflected any design...so I'm all talk?
14. I want to win a photo contest (pride talking). Once someone told me that my scenery pics weren't that great, that I should stick to taking pics of people. It's funny how the negative criticism is always remembered.
15. I want to travel (again selfishness...but hey it's ok in a world that selfishness is celebrated.)
16. I'm on 5 Armenian Evangelical Boards, seriously, what's wrong with me? Nothing ever gets done, why do I put myself through these tortures?
17. I'm scared of what kind of person I would be if I was filthy rich. A bit ironic considering what I've written.
18. I've always been curious what if I took the "red pill" and never went to seminary?
19. I wonder what will be shared at my funeral.
20. I don't want to be critical about anything.
21. I've noticed people really don't care anymore about anything. Funny thing is then why would they care about this blog.
If you read this, I truly mean it: I hope 2012 is great for you. Then again you will hear, read, see it over and over again for the next week, so what makes my hope for you so special?
